Our Future: Part 2.

Yesterday I wrote about a unique opportunity for John and I, and clearly we are faced with a choice. John will be traveling a lot in the next year or two, and I think this change will be awesome for him, and us as a couple.

The problem is that I will still be teaching. I will be at home. I will still be commuting 45 minutes one way to my job. I will have a house to take care of and a life to continue. Mind you, this is a life we created with intentions that two people would live it together.

Well. Things have changed.

I have two choices - I can find a job closer to our home (whether it be teaching or not), or I can go with John.

Either way, it means one thing.

Yep. You guessed it.

I'm considering quitting my job.
(Holy shit. I can't believe I just typed that.)

Or in teacher terms, I am considering "not renewing my teaching contract".

My plan is not to have a plan to plan as little as possible. Let's assume, for the sake of conversation, that I do not renew my teaching contract. Here's what I can forsee:


John will traverse the country working. I will finish my current teaching contract. Ideally, I will obtain a job immediately after Memorial Day weekend. If it doesn't work out like that, I'll take the summer off like usual, and will apply for my substitute teaching license for Iowa and other states John may travel to. In August, when school starts up, I will substitute teach around home and when I feel like getting away, I'll go stay with John for a few weeks. I'll work when I want, and travel when I want.


Regardless of whatever option I pursue; a non-teaching job or substituting/traveling, I will be upgrading my lifestyle. No more grading papers. No more meetings. No more disgruntled parents. I look forward to clocking out at the end of the day and leaving my job behind. I am so jealous of people who get to do that! I get to garden. I get to work on our house. I will also get to see more of the country with my man - yes, even if I get a non-teaching job.

I feel like I need to take a few deep breaths right now. Do you? Go for it. I'll wait.

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Here are some other details we've worked out, should I decide to substitute teach/travel: We will keep our house. We both just love it too much to sell. Yeah, things might change, and we're totally open to new opportunities later. John thinks that he can travel for about 2 years working on nuclear facilities.

I am comfortable either working a non-teaching job in town or subbing for two years and flip-flop from living at home and living with John on the road. At this point, I also intend to keep my part-time job at the clothing store during this time. We have no intentions to adopt a child any longer, and will not be trying to have a biological child either. It will be just me, John, and the pups.

There's something I think is important to say: I know this won't be perfect. I know I will have bad days, weeks, and months. I know that if I find a full-time non-teaching job and John is traveling I will painfully miss him - just the same as I would if I kept my current teaching job. The difference would be that at least I could be closer to home and not commute such a distance.

I know that if I travel with him and substitute teach, I will likely have to do some soul-searching for my "calling" or "purpose". It would take a lot for me to come to terms with the fact that I wouldn't be actively pursuing a career any longer. I would be be taking a break. It could be toxic to my resume. It could kill any possibilities of teaching full-time in my own classroom in the future - should I decide that I want to go back. It would, no doubt, be a struggle at first; a drastic change that would be hard to rebound from. I could hate it.

Or I could love it.

Either way, I feel free. I feel liberated. I've never felt this feeling before, and it's intoxicating! I can't wait to share more of this journey with you.

Stay tuned, and hold on! It's going to be a bumpy ride.

Over and out.



6 comments:

  1. All I can say is WOW! I am so happy for you guys though, no matter what you chose to do. Thank you for sharing this fun and scary moment in your lives. All will happen the way the good Lord wants it to. :)

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    1. I am learning to not micromanage this transition and just let it happen. It feels pretty liberating to just roll with the punches!

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  2. OK-I'm getting caught up on all of this! =) LOVE the blog and I am very excited for you! I guarantee that you will both love and hate not teaching full time. It's an adjustment that gets easier, but I will say that it is SO awesome to come home and be stress-free! Good luck! I'm excited to follow your adventures!

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    1. Your comment gives me a bit of relief, actually! I mean, you've travelled this path already. Thanks for becoming a reader - sign up for email updates or follow us on Facebook, too. I look forward to keeping in touch!

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  3. How liberating! What you describe here {no full time job} is kind of my life and always has been. When Dan & first married he was active duty Air Force. We moved every year and a half to three years and it's seriously hard to have a career when you've moving all the time. What did I do instead? Worked part time, invested in good friendships, and traveled the world. As a feminist, it's sometimes hard for me to admit that I've enjoyed not having a career. True, true!! And having also done the full time teaching thing, I don't think you will miss the headache too much. Thanks for sharing your story!! We really need to meet in person soon because I like you. :-)

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    1. I really look forward to perfecting the trifecta you described above: working part time, investing in friendships, and traveling. Admitting that I am not teaching full-time in 'my own' classroom was a tough pill to swallow at first, and it will probably be hard in August when school starts, but I know I'm going to love it in the long run. Let's meet ASAP - when you're done being a jet-setter in PARIS (!!!), of course :)

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